memoires

the song that came to my mind while i did the design....

And as we lie beneath the stars

We realize how small we are

If they could love like you and me

Imagine what the world could be

***love this song***

World is my oyster

World is my oyster?

“Just go. Go out. Really, the world is your oyster. Kick up your heels. Paint the town red.

How many of us really believes that? I like to but sorry ROSS – oysters is just not my thing.

But is the oyster really in our grasp..or should we go hunting to make our world the oyster…can we change the colors of the town that revolve around us. I often ignore the “united colors of Benetton” that I see now and then and pass them as the weird images of my mind..the work of the pessimistic part of my brain that tries to overtake my controlled emotions.

And today the “fun loving cool friend of mine” lost his oyster..the town for him turned to a color of rainbow but I guess a real dull one. I keep telling him that he can actually control his life..he can grab the oyster and paint the town red..hehehe that doesn’t sound really decent ..i know..he totally cracked up laughing!!

I guess to some extend our old friend ROSS is right..think 5 years maybe 2 years back!!havent you thought of really giving up or thinking your life sucks and today when you really think about it its kind of funny how everything turned back all right!!

Sometimes I am a victim of the colorless town and live in an oysterless world but then again why should I sit here and sulk about something that would make my day worse..why cant I just go out, kick my heels and start painting the town red. All I need is some one to go out and enjoy a coffee with someone who can talk “tom and jerry” or talk about how “peggy” in southpark got killed and reborn!!

So my cool friend..although your lifes been going through a depression phase ..lets just go and count the oysters we have got ;-)

creating the banner!!

attacked by lifes necessity to work i have been lately forced to neglect blogging...the wheels of my work load had conquered the so called time i spent for myself and drained creativity out of me...it had become the matrix that i could not escape from

finally after a fierce fight between me and my workload i managed to escape from the hands of the numerous contracts, presentations, daily routine...its not over yet!! i hear em say!!

the need for my survival and the addiction to empty the Male' shops has still forced me to cling to the money making machine..the survival tool which is linked to the workload..but i have squeezed sometime from my conquerer and managed to create the paradoX banner!!

phew!! energy draining out...need RED BULL who is supposed to give me wings to fly away!!

its a breeze...

its a breeze in the darkenss of night

just a breeze that caressed my life

caught my hand and kissed my soul

fearless nights

thoughtless dreams

though an illusion

seems so real

just a breeze in the darkest night

only a breeze ..its just a breeze

aaarGGGGHHHHH!!

this is exactly how i feel now!!

rolling eyes

cant hold on any longer..need to get out ...need to breath..need to see a human being who can talk my talk

panting..running...panting*

trapped ..trapped again!

knock knock noo answer again*

I have made up my mind...i am gonna quit ,...soon the day will come when i would no longer walk in the same road..when i would change my life !! when i can no longer be compressed or expanded to other peoples wishes.

soft sign ....looking out of the window to the slight ray of light