my little world

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My little world..
Attacked me with the obsession of trying to fit in to my world ..yeup my inner self which craves for a normal life and ability to do whatever I wish is defeated by the sensitive side of me.

My little world
Declared my over weight body ‘not acceptable”..

The nights spent struggling to keep up with the exercise guru is not doing the trick any more. I surrender to the only way of survival - starvation!!!

My little world …
A place where people worship appearance…

the very first words coming out from those to whom i have been invisible is that my body has been transformed to a fat chicken!

The flood lights are on and its my turn to walk through the crowd , with fake smile on my lips…

I watch in disbelief as people turn around with the same look on their face…

she got to starve..i hear them say..starve herself to a nano bit!

My obsession crawls in to my body demanding me to STARVE till I become invisible to my shadow!

every broken heart heals...

when life reaches edge of despair hope is the only thing we can hold on to ..a saying that i had been inspired by though out my life...

I often wonder how much pain or despair a human can hold in his heart..ofcourse it differs from one being to another..after all everyone is an individual ..one with different views, different life...

Can really a heartache be a road to someones deathbed..can a beautiful feeling kill someone..why do we love to get hurt and let our lives tortured by the feeling of despair!

the thoughts had been running through my mind since one of the guys in my "coffee crowd" declared that he feels his life is over after his "loved one" decided to break his heart and be with someone else... i kept staring at him and feeling sorry for him..what if he really had to face a real tragedy?

Despair, pain...is it a mere heartache! For me tragedy and heart break had a totally different meaning .. its the feeling of losing someone to the hands of death..the loneliness of the mother who sent his son to war...the pain of hundreds of kids who gets abused and tortured every day...the tears of the wife who witnessed her husbandbeing tortured to death infront of her...the helplessness of all the mothers to see their children die of hunger..the struggles of someone who is not lucky like us to see the world, to hear the sounds or speak! Tragedy is all around the world today..Tragedy is what we hear and read about every day...

I dont know what tommorow will bring to my life but today I feel lucky ... lucky to be breathing fresh air, having a coffee with everyone and laughing about every day jokes, to go to a home and sleep in my bed...i feel i live in luxury everyday! So heartbroken guys and girls out there...its not the end of life..not the end of your happiness...the tears that you shed will be short lived...take this as a second chance to find love..and feel love...love is a beautiful experience!

Nothing is for ever!

Every heart can be mended...every pain will be healed its just the taste of bitterness that remains..

my world of abstraction

an abstract has never failed to capture my eyes! A reason why I have been fascinated in designing and creating abstract.

My first design from adobe photoshop (ofcourse after doing numerous tutorials) - a sip from my coffee break "THE CAPTURED FLOWERS!!"